The New Year

A new year is coming! Another good time to start everything afresh ha... Also another good time to reflect on what has been done for this year.. To bring it to a "close".. hehe.. Hmmm.. actually the closing should have been done yesterday.. . .. .. .. .. Oh well~ xp

Lots and lots and lots and lots of things happened this year.. haha.. Well at least.. It is to me.. hehe..

I've learnt so much and I've experienced so much! There was like 2 major transitions in my life.. No wait.. 3 major transitions! O.O Talk about cramping everything together ha.. And come to think of it.. they happen kinda sudden.. Kinda surprising in a way.. haha..

First of all, a new person came into my life this year.. hehe.. No its not a new baby brother or sister. Its a new... Relationship<3 XD Hmmmm... After looking back.. I've realised.. I started my relationship in the weirdest way.. lols.. Extremely weird.. haha.. We've kinda like broke the new-couple-must-see-each-other-everyday thingy.. XD Coz right after we started I had to fly to UK to finish off my studies.. and He had to be in Singapore to work. Questions like, is this really the right time to start? Can we really make it apart? How long would it even last? would constantly pop up in my mind.. Like.. HELLO! Its long distance! It's kinda like a big deal to me.. haha.. I like to keep people close! I cry when they leave! T.T lols.. I seriously didn't think that I would even try a long distance relationship.. I must be crazy when I made that decision..

Even throughout this year, more like few months.. hehe.. It was journey full of surprises, excitement, joy, butterflies, laughter, doubts, fears and tears.. It wasn't an easy journey.. But it was one that I would never exchange for anything else. Though it takes the effort from both of us to continue on I'm really thankful for the support and blessing from my spiritual parents, mentor and close friends.. Especially in the beginning.. Despite wherever this relationship may take me, I believe it is good to start things right, and I'm more than happy to involve others in it.. Of course, naturally would be with those whom I have higher regards to and closer ones le.. hehe.. I knew I could always go back to them for advice or.. complains! XP

But if one day, if things didn't turn out right and if you were to ask me would I let him go.. It would break my heart, but yes I will let him go. When I decided on that decision it actually reminded me of God's love for us. God's love is so much more than any human being could ever love yet He gave us with a free will, to choose. To walk in God's love or away from it. It must have caused God a major heartbreak to see us turning away yet He loved so much that He was not willing to put us on a leash, to tie us down, to control, to force. I wanted to love like that, to love like how God would have loved, with the little that I can and have I just wanted to work towards it. The great pain to have let a loved one go would be so small compared to what God must have felt. Yet God never held grudges of the hurt caused as people would, but is always waiting for us to come back with arms open wide. That is just the awesome God that we have! Great in power, almighty, creator of everything! Yet could love someone as small as you and me. His love is open to all, for all, its merely just a choice. And I'm glad I've made mine. :)

Next... I graduated!!! XD Though my graduation will only come next year.. I can't believe I actually went to UK to study! Although only for 3 months, xp that's like the longest time I've been away from home and family.. And though I did kinda plan for it, it didn't really seemed like it could happen! lols.. Awesome experience!!!! Met great people, seen great places~ Had terrible assignments! xp But it was just awesome~ I cooked!!! And kinda got.. More independent compared to the previous me~ keke.. Than I got to experience different cultures and all, its really different when you actually stay there for some time compared to just visiting the place during the holidays. It was scary yet awesome! lols.. weird ha.. And the weather there.. Freaking cold in the beginning! KONONYA summer!!! haha.. But we began to love the weather there as we got used to it..XD and also knew how to dress for the weather. Made things so much better.. hehe..

Than after 3 months, its back in Malaysia~ Thus I was than thrown into... The working world!! No wait.. More like.. The jobless-people-world... haha.. Been floating for like almost a month before having a job.. Now I'm still trying to get use to my new "timetable".. From time to time I will feel I have no life~ haha.. Go to work early.. Come home late.. >.< But yea.. I'm hanging on.. Trying to fit in.. New environment, new friends, new "culture".. I shall try to learn as much as I can. Gambate to me! >.<

Another major transition that I'm still currently going through is taking care of my CG, as a leader. O.O Something that needs hard work, passion, and effort. Which I am currently still working towards.. >.< Not gonna be easy, but its the joy that I feel from seeing people come together or making a difference, that keeps me going I suppose. Bestie asked me what my new year resolution would be.. The HORROR! New Year ResolutionS!!!! xp I replied, not to vivid yet but something along the lines of impacting lives. Life is just too meaningless to live it just for yourself. I may not be perfect, may have many flaws even but with the little goodness that I have I wish to impart it on them.. Teehee! Just as the leaders before have imparted theirs on me. Pass it on!!!! XP

Soooo.. Cheers to a better year up ahead!! God bless~!