Footprints

I've been.. Sad these days.. :(

I can't really differentiate whether this sadness.. Is caused by my monthly mood swing~ Or just the circumstances and situations that I'm in right now, that I see right now..

On the brighter side, I finally roughly got a hold of my monthly mood swing! haha.. Score one for understanding myself more! Yes at times I don't understand me.. xp Well.. The swing goes like this~ Usually before my monthly visit from my "aunt" or.. Strawberry~ or Tsunami~ or whatever you nickname it.. I tend to get a lil grumpy and easily irritated.. than.. I'll be back to my normal self during the "visit" and after the "visit" usually I'll feel.... saddddd and perhaps with some lack of confidence and glooooomy~ haha.. Complicated much? I think so too.. xp

No wonder they say ladies are complicated.. Yeaaaaa.. thanks to the waves of feelings and... hormones! But its important to me to know why I feel the way I do. I guess it helps me manage them better, since I don't have a good management of feelings.. I hate not knowing why I feel the way I feel.. Thus the struggle for me has always been an internal one.. >.<

It's just times like this when I feel... So.. Alone.. Not the lonely kind of alone.. Its the kind that I feel that there's no one who can be there for me.. I can't expect some one to be with me 24/7 as well.. Family, friends.. Have their own responsibilities, this I understand. But at that moment I really needed someone, or at least something.. So I flipped to facebook.. lols! So sweat right.. haha.. Stupid facebook.. It contains people! I didn't really know why I went there maybe I was just looking for some "connection" to humans.. Then I saw it.. A post from 1 of my friends which said:

The Lord replied,''...during those times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then I carried you.'' - Footprints

Oh I tell you.. It went straight to the heart.. And I just couldn't hold my tears any longer. You see God is really amazing isn't He.. He just knows when to make things "pop out".. And when to affirm me, to keep me together.. He can use anything.. Even Facebook.. To remind me of His promises.. Of all the 100 display messages across my facebook page and at that particular moment, it had to be the first one I saw.. Coincidence? I don't think so.. God is so real..! I am glad that no matter what happens I know there is always hope in this God that I love, this God that loves me more than I could ever understand.. Loves us more than we could ever understand.. This hope I have, I share it to any one who reads this! XD Its available for all, just need to ask! :) Not from me of course.. From God! XP

Here's a nice song too! XD