Dream troubles

Here I am.. Blogging again when I should be doing my thesis~ Darnnnn.. I just can't stop doing this.. x.x Ughhh.. Dear "diary"~ Today was such an unfruitful day~ Bufffff.... *mumble grumbles* Mmmm.. Went to church~ Did a little shopping.. Washed my clothes~ Cleaned my room~ Arrange some stuff~ Finished the whole 2nd season of Glee (Which is only the remaining 2 episodes).. and poof! Its night time already.. Bummerrrr~

Anyways.. After I finished the whole season 2 of Glee I find its quite nice actually.. It's more emotional~ I guess.. Maybe I'm more emotional.. I don't know.. haha.. Well I would recommend it.. For discerning audiences.. haha.. Can't just take in everything you see.. Just because other people are doing it doesn't always mean its alright to do it. Its good to have a clear value of where you stand so that you don't just blindly think everything's ok.. It's good to learn to discern and just pick up the so called good stuff.. haha.. Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial~

Well I think I've learned something from this Rachel Berry character.. haha.. Some crazy super confident girl who is all over herself but who is really talented.. Though she is always over confident, selfish and always wants to be in the spotlight, something that I admire in her character is that she dreams big dreams! And she's not afraid to go for her dreams no matter how much negative circumstances that may come her way..

I could never dream such big dreams.. All I have are these little dreams.. Not considered dreams even, more like goals~ haha.. Like short term stuff.. Finishing my course with a good result~ Blablabla.. Boring stuff.. That's the least I could try to squeeze out from my brain that's considered to be a "dreaaam".. @.@ Ughh... Why? Because I still remember when pastor was here he would always never fail to ask me every now and then when we meet.. What is your dream? Where do you see yourself in 5 years time? Ughh! I can't answer.. So pastor said start small so I ended up with goals instead.. lols.. It's like a long time ago and oh mannn.. I still haven't progressed from there! I suck!! lols..

Maybe partly because I'm not particularly talented in any way so.. May be harder to dream..? I always say my dream is to have a dream~ Haha.. Sad? Herhhhh.. But I do remember that when I told pastor I don't have a dream.. Or I can't dream.. Or I don't know what to dream.. He just said it's not that I don't have a dream.. It's that I don't dare to dream.. How profound huh~ Maybe it's partly because of that too.. And I guess this Rachel Berry character kinda reminded me of that as well.. Her confidence that she'll definitely make it the top even when she's far from it..

I admire and are jealous! the people that have a dream.. An ambition.. To do something or to be someone.. Someone as in.. Not someone else.. Someone as in someone different and stuff like that.. So if you ever have a dream.. That's just awesome and just go for it!! haha.. If not yet.. Don't stop looking for it! XP And hopefully you're not as stuck as I am.. hehe~ Well why is it important to have a dream? For starters it gets you going~ It can be motivation~ It kinda helps you set your tracks.. To know what to do.. Or where to focus on to achieve it.. Goes in line with the saying "Beginning with the end in mind" should be by Rev Edmund Chan..

And of course I won't give up too.. haha.. Well at least not yet.. xp Maybe when I reach 60 or something and still don't have a dream.. Arghh!! That's crazy!!! keke.. Up until then.. I guess I should spend my day dreaming session to actually dream about real stuff.. lols.. So yea.. Wish me luck? Oh sorry I don't believe in luck~ I believe in God~ OOoOoOOooooo~~~ haha.. xp Wish me the best than!